I've done nothing intrinsically useful in several days, really.
I have had no new work come in at all yet this year...My business has gone all to hell.
This time a year ago I had just about forgotten what "sleep" meant, because I had been putting in 15 to 18 hour or longer days for all of 07, and it continued right up to about July of 08...but since then, I have less than half of what was once a monthly average for two or three year running...not good...The money has run out, and the work is not coming in.
There are several reasons for this:
1) The European Patent Commission decided that patents no longer need to be translated from French to English. Translating French patents was about 30 to 40% of my work from 05 to July of this year.
2) Banks, auto manufacturers, and everybody's uncle's dog going tits up.
3) Some of my regular clients simply no longer exist...
I went looking for a waiter job at Applebee's yesterday.
It's that bad.
I moved my office out of it's room into my living room, and am trying to rent the office out to get a roommate to help with the expenses.
Pretty soon I'm going to try to sell a kidney, or my virgin sphincter, to the highest bidder.
I have a child to feed.
I can't lose this apartment, either.
I was interpreting in Housing Court in a neighboring town just a couple of weeks ago.
There are thousands upon thousands of people in Connecticut being evicted.
Shelters are full to overflowing. People have no where to go.
I can't allow this to happen to my daughter. Not now. Not ever.
Clearly, this year will see changes.
In 08, my wife left me, my business fell apart, and my broker flushed 96% of my savings down the toilet.
I figure, what with the whole "wheel of fortune", I can't get too much lower before things start getting better...
So, anyway, I've done little of real worth...Okay, I went looking for a waiter job.
I showed the former office.new bedroom to a potential roommate.
I have one Brazilian psychology article to finish translating. I received it in November. I have about 3 hours worth of work left, and it's due a week from today, but I haven't even worked on that. I keep procrastinating. I have a pile of dishes to wash...I don't feel like washing dishes.
I haven't even painted anything in over a week, now, to tell the truth.
I've had a cold, but it's going away now.
I should do something useful. Things won't get any better if I sit around and wait for "God" to make it so...